Category Archives: Rabbit Hole

The Worries: Part 2

Posted on October 5, 2015 by A Life After Loss

Oh, thank Christ. Two years ago a dermatologist thought my daughter might have neurofibromatosis, or NF. It’s a terrible genetic disease that neither me nor my husband have. Even though the diagnosis didn’t really fit, even after a physical examination, … Continue reading →

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The Worries

Posted on September 23, 2015 by A Life After Loss

Some people take life as it comes, worrying about something when there is a clear, imminent risk of something crappy happening. I envy those people with all my heart. What it must be like to go through life not constantly … Continue reading →

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Better

Posted on July 8, 2014 by A Life After Loss

A few months after Jay died, people started asking me if things were better. If they were too nervous to ask me, they asked our friends. The answer I and everyone else gave was no. I hoped that after a … Continue reading →

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A Trip

Posted on September 12, 2013 by A Life After Loss

I just got back from a business trip. I used to like these things. The subject manner is usually mind-numbing, but I love my coworkers and it used to be a chance for me to get out of the day … Continue reading →

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Drowning

Posted on August 28, 2013 by A Life After Loss

I am not doing well. I don’t know how else to put it. Last week I was talking about that feeling of utter horror that arrives when it arrives, and after that it decided to pay me an extended visit. … Continue reading →

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He was here

Posted on August 21, 2013 by A Life After Loss

6 months in, I go about my day to day in a pretty normal way. I take my daughter to school, manage the household stuff, talk to friends, hang out with my husband and tend to the one, lone tomato … Continue reading →

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Shoes

Posted on August 6, 2013 by A Life After Loss

A few months ago I had to take my daughter into the pediatrician’s office for her 5 year shots. The doctor did a regular examination as well and I happened to remember a mole my daughter has between her toes … Continue reading →

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Safe Travels

Posted on July 30, 2013 by A Life After Loss

This past weekend we flew to Vancouver, BC to visit relatives. I had never been there before and it had been a few months since we went anywhere, so off we went. Traveling is not easy for me these days. … Continue reading →

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